6 February.

uh oh no. could i share u something? i r-a-w-r you! monday&tuesday but not today. today was so, hm suck. seriously, i don't want to far apart. oh god, 3 years is too long enough. dan selagi emang bisa barengan, kenapa enggak? makin males hari-harinya juga udah mulai sibuk sana-sini even lupa mungkin sama masing-masing. hah, honestly, it's really hard for me. i hate being in loved with you, deeply in love with you(exactly) im afraid to nanggepin all your good things cause i know that good things not for forever(gaada yang abadi kan di dunia ini?) at first, emang im freakin' fall in love with, but these feeling just grow day by day and i can't avoid it. sering terlintas "jgn smp lo syg/prcya bgt sm ssorg, nanti bkalan skt" but HOW COME? the reality is like a SHIT. udah terlanjur banget-banget-banget-banget. bahkan dia lebih menghargai gue sebagai cewek. treat me like a woman who he was in love with. emg ga romantis,sometimes. but im proud to be his. dia beda. he said "aku lebih menghargai kamu dan ga mau mainin ataupun nyakitin kamu din" even the other couple do the damn things enough. no, im not respect of that. emang sometimes banyak ga percayanya gue sama dia. but, because his insensitivity. i think he just dont know how to treat a woman, tapi sayang (banget) and he just too shyyyyy and dont know how to show it. (mendingan jarang show it but real than sering show it but fake, ya gak sih?) jadi kadang kalo liat/denger dia sosokan romantis2an gitu malah ngakak bawaannya. im just like who you are, lexyyy. lebih lucu lagi kalo liat dia marah2/nyindir di twitter gara-gara cemburu. itu tuh salah satu cara dia to show it.

"commitment is a funny thing u know. it's almost like getting a tatoo, you think, think and thhink again before u get one.. and once you get the one, it sticks to you, hard and deep"

ini 23 Maretku.

Seriously this guy is really-really different from other.
He said, he just too shy to sayin' 'sayang2an' or anything, but i'm really deep in love with this guy. 

Cause my phone was losttttttttttttttttt, and i'm totally missing (padahal baru kemaren pacaran,sampe kaki berasa mau patah, jalan mulu-_-) so i text him by mom's then we decided to skype-ing. //it was his first time used skype loh hoho// And it's already 10:57 PM, my eyes status is 5 watt, totally sleepy, then im just skyping on my bed with my pillow hehehe.

Falalalalala~ -_-

Ini cerita malam mingguku, kalau kamu?

13-03-13

13-03-13 : how a lucky date!! hehe
sekarang gue udah genap 15 tahuuun dong B) umur gue makin nambah tapi jatah hidup gue pun makin berkurang artinya-_-

thank you for today, especially Nadine (she is the first person in twitter who said happy birthday!!) Bonita (she is the one and only who can understand me, she knows that i wanted chocolate so much, then she gave it to me! simply but tasty :p)

then that strangers who belongs with me for 10 month, "siapa ya?gak kenal pergi sana gih" hehehe makasih s*yang.

ANDDDDDD, LAST BUT NOT LEAST!

You! yes you, a hug in my birthday, in unexpected moment. i can't forget. never. ever.

when my tears almost goes down. when we re-open our memories. make it laugh. when we realized how awkward, how childish, how ........ we are. Flashback, alur mundur(?). and i really-really missed us. yes us, not you and me, but US.

"Bener-bener gue gak bisa move on dari kita" "Aku kangen kalian banget" "Lebih enakan balik ke kelas 7 ya" "Cerita tentang kita, dijadiin drama sama kelas lain. Dan cerpen yang aku buat, dapet nilai 90 sama bu Lidia" "ih, gara2 lo sih, flashback. Jadi susah move on kan gue"

 and i've got dms from her, wuuuuuuh i can't say anything. That moment was really, really unexpected. 
Semua gara2 berkat ulangtaun gue kali yak?!?! Semuanya jadi seneng, damai, tenteram, aman, adil, sejahtera(?) BUT SERIOUSLY, ini a simple special. a great birthday present i ever had.
Dan baru sadar juga, pas kemaren gue otak-atik facebook, liat yang older-older. ketemu foto2 sama video2.
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Sampe dirumah, buka google :

Seriusssan ini gue yang norak kalo google bisa begini -__-

Tunggu update-an nya lagi for the birthday pict HEHE byeeeee.

you say

You say: "It's impossible"
GOD says: All things are possible (Luke 18:27)

You say: "I'm too tired"
GOD says: I'll give you my rest (Matthew 11:28-30)

You say: "Nobody really loves me"
GOD says: I love you.. (John 3:16 & John 3:34)

You say: "I'm not able"
GOD says: I'm able.. (II Corinthians 9:8)

You say: "I can't forgive myself"
GOD says: I forgive you.. (I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)

You say: "I'm not smart enough"
GOD says: I give you wisdom.. (I Corinthians 1:30)

grannygreeny

brand new me! grannygreeny
Hey! It's already 2:07AM dude.

My eyes still on ayu utami's trilogy. i can't take off my eyes of it. It was an amazing novel ever, you must think the words one by one twice, then you can know what does it mean. So, i almost spent 1 month to read "si parasit lajang", cause the words its too hard to understand, but i like the way her bring the readers into her plot. But the second trilogy, titled Cerita Cinta Enrico is easier cause disini Ayu pake sudut pandang orang pertama pelaku utama, jadi i just spent 2 days to finish it. Then "eks parasif lajang" is waiting... HEHE. Tulisan Ayu Utami terlihat frontal,keren,dan gak bisa di duga-duga. recommended!

Hello March!! \m/

Maret kali ini sibuk sama ujian praktek, sama ujian sekolah. sungguh gak mau lagi punya bulan maret kayak gini. ya walaupun pas ujian praktek pun cuma gabut doang di sekolah HEHE. Bulan Maret di 9.3 bakalan jadi bulan yang paling banyak traktiran beruntut. 13 Maret : Dinda&Ito's Birthday then part 2 on 26,27,28,30,31 March another xniters birthday hohoho <:-D. We gonna make some party this month yea guys. Udah gak kuat jadi anak kelas 9, capeeeeeek banget. capek hati. capek fisik. semua diforsir. dibuat enjoylah yeaaa :D

btw,another person out there... something different. something changing. something new.
a first week on March, i'm gonna change 'the worst February'. something new. something better. i wish i could. so, to be honest i hate February 2013! 

And the good one is,i'm and mr.alexander, is getting back. we're being one.
and with my secretbestie i loveyouu guys :-*
Give your best,
March. :)