Udah dibilang berkali-kali kan ya? Paling gak suka sama orang yang suka mengalihkan pembicaraan taugak. Gak bisa diajak serius elah. Tau ah. Terserah. Giliran udah dapet malah disia-siain gitu aja, tapi tar kalo udah dideketin orang lain aja marah-marah mulu.  Udah nurut aja, sesuka hati lo aja deh kek :-)

xoxo

hohohohohoho Merry Christmas folks!

I don't have any special christmas gift,except hehe:
had a cutest new little rabbit
had a new pair converse+bag school(huh finallyy-_-)
had a wonderful christmas eve with my little family+Jessee!! :)
had a new haircut -_-
had an AMAZING FAMILY ({})

i'll go to my grandma's, celebrate the christmas, visit my grandpa's grave,etc.. then LAMPUNG here we go!!
 AAAH it'll be amazing and so muchhhh fun. i'll forget 'bout all my ASSignment, kartul, LPJ, and...........boy, that can be messed up my holiday and also my mood, so forget it for a while ;)
oke. then. bye!

Its ur choice!

Ada berapa orang yang jauuhh lebih baik dari pada aku sih hah? Banyak. Ada berapa aku di dunia ini hah? Cuma sa-tu.
Sekarang lebih milih yang ada banyak atau pilih yang cuma satu?
Itu pilihanmu.

1th Desember✌

Goodbye Nov, you've got my heart on you and will always be, especially on nov18th, nice to have some indescribable moments with you. Something good begins. But then, on Nov18th was unforgettable day ever. It was my mommy's bdayy and so my 6th buttt we were fight, andd it was the worsttttt fight everr happen between us.
Look at the date on the pict it was 18-11-2012:(
And all that for a reason it does not make sense,so basically i did not want to have another anniversary on holiday at the second time.
Thenn i realize i miss them! I miss dedam+l so muccch! But i can't do anything to make them back, hopefully they can feel what i felt now, look the problem by my side,so they can know me, i prefer go anywhere by my self than i must choose them&alex.Dindaa masih sayang kaliaan:((
Masa yaa masaaa JP-Putri putus sih:--( dan masa gara2 doa gue lagii parah sih. Mereka putus dan semalem sebelumnya gue blg ke JP"kalo misalnya lo ga ngasih gue coklat gue doain lo tar putus sama Putri" terus besoknya putus. Parah bgt kan gue kan:((
November ended : I'm stressful cause kartul. The End~

SO, HELLO DESEMBER!!
Its sunshine outside. Friday midnight i spent to watch my collectiondrama-romance film till morn. Then as usual i hate when i slept too late i also wakingup too early. Then thiss saturday i spent to sttuuudddyyyy. Cause monday i have exams for my 1th term. Then i suddenly wrote this notes. Hehehe. Hopefully i have a guuhhreet Desember and christmas flawless wkwkwk. So see you yaaa;)

LDK oh LDK-_-

Daaaaan YAK sekarang rutinitas udah mulai keganggu sama rapat osis sana sini, especially buat LDK.
Kejar target November urusan LDK harus kelar, beloman lagi rapat Classmeeting daaan LPJ.
LDK : Proposal 3 kali ditolak yeah hm :|
           Wawancara Seleksi LDK juga bikin masalah baru lagi sama adek kelas,yang emang superb!
          Anggaran : Untung aja sekolah gak terlalu pelit banget untuk masalah ini.
          Buat pengumuman tentang hasil Seleksi sana sini
          Mikirin salam,peraturan,name tag,perlengkapan dkk segala macem itu laaah
          Beban tanggungan jadi Sekretaris dan Bendahara itu berat,asli deh. :((
          Sambil dikejar-kejar sama bu Lidia.dead-line


Pulsek, buka laptop, ngeprint, ngerjain pr, makan dan sama sekali gak sempet buat nyiapin buku malem, jadi kebiasaan nyiapin buku pagi2. Kebanyakan to-do-list jadi bingung sendiri mau mulai dari yang mana.

Mati
Aja
Yuk?

Gue-butuh-re-fresh-ing
Bener bener butuh sangat amat teramat sekali.
Di bioskop udah ada fotonya Kristen Steward-Robert Pattinson//u know what i mean-_-
Paranormal Activity 4
dan Skyfall <///33

Banyak film bagusssssss. Tapi gak ada temen nontonnya, gak lucu kan gue sendirian?!

Minggu ini bener2 gak sempet istirahat ya, bolak balik sakit melulu. Udah cukup buat minggu ini, minggu depan gak lagi-lagi deh ya <//3333 T-T

Sometimes, you make me so mad that I wanna kill you, but then I realize how much I love you and I'd probably kill myself trying to save you.

Kaki gue keseleo, lima-anak-tangga berhasil gue lewatin. Sakit. Parah. Gak. Kuat. Kaki. Berasa. Kaki. Gajah. Sampe. Gak. Bisa bedain mata kaki sendiri-_-

Semua gara-gara JP sama Putri.
DAN YAK. MEREKA JADIAN.
Semalam sebelumnya gue berdoa "semoga jp bs lebih berani mengungkapkan perasaannya ya Tuhan"
Dan besok paginya, JP nembak:') finally yaaaa
TURUT SENANG yea guys <:-)

({fifth})

Bosen teramat sangat. Nyesel bolos hari ini :-((

Aaahh kangen. Ananda. Alexander. Emmanuel. Orah:(

The fifth,im fallin' in love again at the second time mihihi<3
"Happy 6th Monthversary DINDA"
--' duh kok 6 sih?kan baru 5.
"hehe iya kan maunya lama2 terus sama kamu"<-- alesan
It starts from when i want to break up on us, till your friends ask me about that "statements", and realize that i'm not serious :p

The moment when i walk with ----- and you told me that you don't like if i'm with someone else that you guess he likes me. Haha then you show it up on timeline twitter. Ngakak tau gak liat alex marah2 gitu, orang aku sama dia gaada apa2 juga issshhh haha=D cemburu.bilang :p

Di bulan kelima ini juga kita jujur2an. About those "someone else" who always disturb us and time,we need much time together :')

And i loved when we always argue about "the emoticon".
Terus mungkin kebahagiaan bulan kelima ini berahkir waktu ret2. The best moment ever lah pokoknya.
Apalagi pas doa malem2 ituu,sedih bgt taugaksih,gak tau tar sma gimana:-( tapi kata kamu gak usah dipikirin. Eh malah kata kamu sendiri yang mikirin itu semaleman. Serba telat deh-_-
Dan setelah kejadian doa malem bareng itu langsung ngomongin masa depan dan langsung muncul kata2 "together-forever"({}) terus yang naik ayunan itu<3 dan semua muaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanyalah pokoknya
Anddd i cant wait how the next month will be. Comin' soon!!

Retreat #55

last post : October 15 2012 --> udah berjamur kali ini blog -_-

HAIII
Sekarang udah susah banget nyempetin waktu buat nulis blog. Seakan waktu 24 jam itu kurang. Bangun pagi-pagi buta tar sampe dirumah udah sore, capek,  tidur sampe malem terus ketemu pagi lagi deh:( so sucks yea?

October 23-24-25 2012 : Retreat with #55 Lembah Karmel, Cikanyere and its means it is the last road trip with you guys:( Bakalan kangen banget-bangetan sama kalian({})
Waktu 3 hari  itu bentaaaar banget:( maunya lama-lama sama kalian disana tapi gakusah retreat(materi sama si Romo yang super bawel :p) tapi main main aja disanaa:(( AAA really miss that moment damn so much!!

Dari awal rencana retret kita pada ngeluh "Kenapa deket banget sih retreatnya cuma di puncak? bentar doang perjalanannya"
Pas udah dalam perjalanan ngeluh lagi "Pak, ini kapan nyampenya sih? Lama banget asdhavsdjhd"
#55 maunya apa coba? :')
Dan walaupun agak gak seneng sama pembagian busss nya tapi para genapers di bis 2 itu emang bener bener T-O-P B-G-T deh gak ada duanya.

Mulai dari yang kita dadah2 sama orang-orang di Pasar dengan pasang muka sange, terus divideoin sama orang arab, pokoknya ngegodain semua orang diluar pas lagi macet ntah itu dadah2 lah, ngata2in lah pokoknya semuamuanya.
Terus, teriakan kita pas seneng karena kita mau ke Cimory, tapi gak jadi gara2 orangtua udah pada telp2 marah2 ke bu Woro haha. Sampe Cawang pun kita masih terus teriak-teriak "CIMORY,CIMORY,CIMORY!!"
Film di bis 2 "film penyegar otak", yang gak tau itu film punya siapa, dan siapa yang suruh setel film itu ke kita, kita berprasangka buruk bahwa film itu milik suster wilma atau bahkan si Romo. Dan sampai sekarang pun kita belum mengetahui siapa pelaku penyegaran otak anak2 di bis 2 wakakakk =D
Kejadian lagi kalo si Ronald kentut berkali-kali dan baunya itu gak ilang-ilang. Parah banget!!
Terus si Elwan tiba-tiba teriak "JOGUN BAU JOGUN BAU JOGUN BAU" dan sebis pun ngakak kecuali si korban ;p
Rumah Masakan Padang Lampu Merah, Syumi, Warteg seberang jalan, Puyol, dan ZUMA pun dibawa-bawa =))

Sampe di vct baru setengah 7 an, balik dan langsung tepar sampe 3 hari. Capeknya bener2 gak ilang-ilang. Dan gue beneran sakit kecapean atau semacamlah, hari sabtunya ada birthday party dirumahnya urs. Minggunya gue sakit kronisss parah banget! Headache slowly killin' me inside. Dan ahkirnya senin terpaksa gue harus MEMBOLOSKAN diri ;p

SIP :|

loved

Have you been fed today?
Has anyone told you today that you are loved?
Has anyone made you feel appreciated and let you know how special you are?
Has anyone assured you that you are exactly who you need to be?

And that is simply doing, what you love to do, you are doing enough..
Has anyone reminded you that you didn't come here to prove anything?

You just came to be YOU, Just you
Because being you is enough...

You are one of a kind, a true original, a masterpiece of incomparable value
And without you, the world would be incomplete
Like a puzzle missing a crucial piece
And you are the only being in the universe who can fill that final space

Has anyone told you that the regrets of yesterday belong to yesterday?
And that right now in this one profound moment in time, you're perfect
As perfect as you were created to be..

Has anyone taken the time to let you know that you are infinitely smarter that you give yourself credit of being

And a thousand times more capable of achieving dreams than you believe yourself to be?

Has anyone told you that you should never,never, ever doubt your own worth?

Because even in those moments when you fell it the least, you are still wonderfully made..
And the is within every single cell of your being enough power to light the world.

God placed it there, the day you were born, and every loving thought you think..
Radiates forward, brightening the world and making it a better place to be

That's how powerful you are
That's how loving you are
So now, I ask you again

Have you been fed today?
Has anyone told you that you are truly loved?
If not, then won't you please let me be the one?

That feeling when you really needing someone who always besides you to hug you when you sad, to gives his shoulder when you need, to listen all  of your story, to hold your hands,to cares and loves you,for forever. Promise,but you never make it real, we're act like "fri-end",but we're not just a "fri-end", we're more than friend who loves each other,we're careless each other too, but...i think i can change it now, "you're just stranger,who i loved too much" 

Don't know how to express it. 

So,is that "hello stranger"/"hello fri-end who the most i loved" ?

Hello Stranger,EXACTLY!!

Yakali...

Yakali lu suka sama gue gara2 gue suka sama lu. Yakali, there's a hidden reason behind the drama. Yakali, trust you is the only thing that i can do. Yakali, lo salah mainin orang. Yakali, lo bego banget. Yakali, im afraid to join your game. Yakali, gue pikir negatif mulu. Yakali, ternyata gue galau. Yakali, gue beneran gak mau lo pergi. Yakali, you're bullshit. Yakali, gue syg bat sama lo. Yakali, gue bingung harus gimana. Yakali, is it ur way to make me down. Yakali, gue ga bisa ngelepasin lo. Yakali, gue bisa baca pikiran orang. Yakali, gue ga tau apa yang terjadi. Yakali, ini pikiran negatif aja. Yakali yaaaaa :"D

It's not about how many times you tell someone that you love them, it's about how many times you prove that you do. NOTED THAT!

too late bro ;)

Hey there... long time no see you mr.ag
Glad you came, grenade............those songs :')
HAHA memorise is memorise broh. You're my past.
You're my memorise. and you're my "setan merah"

Don't you happy there? uhm. do you remember all those moment that you ever wrote, here?
do you remember "a scary picture" alfrena rousche? that your lovely jersey pict ? your pict? those mms?
those "shocked text"? those "swiit text"?
and dont you remember my handmade? haha so funny to remember those sent-mms moment.

And nowwwww its really different than before. I already found my heart-pieces.
and plz dont you ever come back to my story please. its really hard for me you know. i dont want to open those memorise broooo. I already have my another "mr.a" and i love him very muchhhhhhh that you ever known. kita udah punya jalan sendiri-sendiri. lo harus bahagia sama cerita lo sendiri. and you should make your dream come true man. i believed someday you will find a girl who loves you with who you are.

I'm so thankful to God, thanks for being my "setan merah". and it's over now! :))

sucks night!

this night....aaasssshiitt. Never mind it happens. so sucks! I reallyyyy hate this feeling, that i felt everything is changes, is like no one can understand me, no one care to me, no one love me. i dont know what i do, every single time i have... i always think about him, but?did he think bout me too? i dont think so. i prefer to wasted my time with my friends than i must stuck in this condition, i dont know what should i do,always tryin to make it like the past. and today i feelin i spent my time just to sleep. i reached home at 6pm then i slept till 10am. what a night. i wake up then replying those text messages, and it makes me sooooooooo sdbhfvweljkdmndjsfbisufhwoihdnkjdamn!

Then ramoti was text me, he tell about his stories, then i asked me about my stories and then blahblahblah he give me some advice to faced this reality, then he recommend this song to me : 

Avenged Sevenfold-So Far Away

"Never feared for anythingNever shamed but never freeA life that healed a broken heart with all that it could
Lived a life so endlesslySaw beyond what others seeI tried to heal your broken heart with all that I could
Will you stay ?Will you stay away forever ?
How do I live without the ones I love ?Time still turns the pages of the book its burnedPlace and time always on my mindI have so much to say but you’re so far away
Plans of what our futures holdFoolish lies of growing oldIt seems we’re so invincibleThe truth is so cold"

actually i searched on youtube, and i think avenged sevenfold is not too bad, then i saw the other their songs....

Avenged Sevenfold-Dear God

"Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I’m not around,
when I’m much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I’d stayed
’Cause I’m lonely and I’m tired
I’m missing you again,once again"

Thankyouuu ram, it really made my night............................................more suck!:(

 

failed.

Hai.
Pengen kasih surprise buat si jelek.. bingung mau kasih paan. Tapi sekarang itu dia lagi cari buku Tintin Laut Merah katanya. Langka, tu buku itu susah banget nyarinya. semua toko buku pun sudah gue jajaki,dan hasilnya pun nihil-_-
Ide gue muncul buat nyari tu buku di kaskus, semua seller buku tintin udah gue smsin dan apa....
   "maaf gan udah ga restock lagi"
   "buku tintin laut merahnya abis gan", atau
    "kalo mau ada sih gan, nanti ane cariin tapi harganya jadi nambah 3kali lipatnya"
 hadeeeh. pusing gua!!!
 gue search di google. Anddddddd i got it! di website komikantik gitu, and you know what, sellernya ada di Bali. gue langsung sms masnya, udah deal harganya langsung transfer dan kirim hari sabtu kemaren. kata masnya bukunya baru sampe 4 hari kerja tapi hari senin kemaren papa teriak dari bawah
 "mbak, sini turun, papa punya hadiah nih buat kamu" 
dalam hati gue *wah tumben2 papa baik banget sama gue* "iya pah" gue turun. 
Terus papa sambil megang paket coklat terus baca keras2 "untuk frederica dinda dari david di bali". wanjirrr gue seneng banget. gue senyamsenyum sendiri. terlalu excited banget nerima paketnya. Finaleeeeeh setelah selama iniiiiii guee dapet jugaaaa aaaaaaaaa
Terus gue buka paketnya di kamar, and here is it..... Jengjeng

First plan sih mau kasih pas enip, tp lamaan dan karena enipnya tanggal merah jadinya sekarang aja. terus selasanya gue kasih. pertama seperti biasa... gue agak nyari masalah dikit lahh, supaya memperpanas suasana haha...biar dia agak kebawa kesel dikit lah :-) terusssss yaudah give it to him hehe... 
Maaf yaaa udah aku buat kesel, semoga suka yaa lekk :-p

Hari ini, gue mau cerita tentang dia.

Dia.
Punya senyum yang mampu jadi api kecil disaat hati ini dingin butuh kehangatan.
Senyumnya indah. Sayang dia blm menyadari kalau senyumnya itu bisa meretakkan dinding rasa sedih seseorang. Intinya, dia bisa bikin orang lain bahagia hanya dgn senyumnya.

Dia.
Punya keunikan didalam dirinya. Dia mungkin blm tau. Tapi seseorang yang mengaguminya di luar sana pasti menyadarinya. Keunikan itu harusnya kasih tau dia, kalau dia nggak butuh jadi orang lain untuk dicintai. Karena dgn jadi dirinya sendiri, akan banyak yang mengagumi.

Dia.
Mungkin sering tersakiti dan terlarut dalam sedih. Tapi dia blm sadar, kalau banyak orang menantinya untuk tersenyum. Banyak orang menyayanginya. Bahwa air mata sampai-sampai meninggalkan matanya karena mereka lebih baik jatuh daripada harus melihatnya bersedih.

Dia.
Sering bilang 'susah move on'. Emang, susah. Karena otak dia selalu mikirin cara utk move onnya, tapi selalu setengah hati geraknya. Nggak penah kasih kesempatan utk istirahat. Padahal move on itu nggak harus ngelupain. Melainkan berhenti memberikan bagian hatimu utknya.

Dia.
Mungkin menganggap dirinya nggak bisa apa-apa, padahal dia bisa banyak hal. Tapi dia menolak untuk mencoba. Padahal, gue yakin dia BISA.

Dia.
Dia itu lo.
Lo yang lagi baca ini.

Nggak usah malu jadi diri sendiri. Karena mau seperti apapun lo, akan ada yang mencintaimu dengan tulus. Termasuk gua, pengagum setia lo :)

#91225

Just give your big smile and say 'hi' to her. Everything is gonna be okay, don't be scare or worried. -mbakdini.
Makasih yaa advicenya kakakku :* much love from jakarta,miss you

Gila yee gak nyangka masih aja ada orang kayak mereka. Bener-bener hebat aktingnyaaa weww. Haha didepan gue sok-sokan baik,nyapa2 gitu yeee ehh giliran di timeline udah kayak musuh bebuyutan bat. Kalo kamu gak suka sama aku bilang aja. Lagipula kalo misalnya aku ngetweet kok kamu yang heboh, emg itu buat kamu? Hehe. ABSOLUTELY NOT! Tapi terimakasih krn kamu udh benci aku, kamu kasih aku suatu pelajaran berharga. :)

hhhhhh salah paham lagi. It is my fault, im sorry dear. Jujur, aku sebenernya gak kuat kalo kamu diemin aku kayak gini terus ):

The people around me says you're a player, even my own mother. I'm afraid if I was wrong to take my decision. There's just one faith that i hold, if you loves me. That is a word that can made me ignored my mother's words. That can made me not concerned with what people says, and i accepted it. Accept you into my life, my dream, and on my future. Sometimes, i don't know what I'm felt in you, is it love? I don't know it all. As time goes, i learned what the "love" is. I mean, now i know what the love is. Love is trust, love is openness, love is jealousy, it is love. Thank you for being my love, lex :)

sucks holiday!

Liburan sekolah kali ini tadinya ada planning buat ke Lampung atau gak ke Semarang tapi karena tanggal 7 Juli nanti gue ada konser jadinya liburan dibatalkan, how sad :(


This holiday i spent my time, only at homeeeeeeee,mostly. because i want to focus to my concert,maybe my holiday will going on after my concert. The first plan, debby,echa,dinda,angel,michelle,samuel,alex wants to go to Kota and PRJ but cause there is  a 'sudden obstruction' we cancelled it. Im very dissapointed. Maybe we must make the other plan. hard to us to make plan without meet 'face-to-face' and blahblahblahhh


Sekarang gue lagi dirumah tante gue, as usual,im bored. Udah seminggu disini, mama terus-terusan telp sekalian pamer kalo dirumah udah dipasang wi-fi. Aaaaaahh kenapa coba mamapapa pasang wi-fi dirumah saat gue ga ada dirumah, dan hal itu yang sampe sekarang bikin gue pengen cepet pulang ke rumah!!!


Liburan selama sebulan.............
Kangen bangettttttttt sama debby,echa,angel,michelle,as my bestfriend ever,indeed.
Kalo sama alex.....pasti. yang mungkin the truth is he never missed me during the holiday, right? he is like a foolish man who lies to himself... but i really missed him so muchhhh, so damn, like a puzzle needs a pieces to  complete it. i missed him like a crazy girl here \m/


Rencana ke depan mungkin, yang pasti gue akan jalan sama temen-temen dan mungkin ke Lampung untuk beberapa hari dan ke Bandung buat cuci mata.


And this is my sucks holiday, how about you guys?

23:45


" Aku mau ngasih tau sesuatu. Tapi jangan marah ya setelahnya... :'(" -gue penasaran
"Iyaa."
"Aku.... Gak tega aku ngomongnya" - makin penasaran
"Tuhkaann kamu mah gitu dibikin kepo akunya -,-"
"Jangan deh ya... sumpah aku ga tega" - bikin emosi!!
"Kalo kayak gitu mah, mending gak usah ngomong dari awal"
"Sebenernyaa.... Aku sayaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaang banget sama kamu" ;;)
"Kalo sayang kok gak tega? terus pake emot nangis?"
"Cuma bikin tegang hehe"
"Ooo... Kalo aku sayang kamu sampe seluas lautan di dunia. Kalo kamu?" -iseng
" Kalo aku lebih dari 18x nya jagat raya + 20ribu luas matahari dijabarkan, bahkan lebih" -lebay, yg bikin sedikit ga percaya.
" Hayooooo gombalan kayak gitu udh dikasih ke berapa cewek lain?"
" Aku udah kasih ke 1001 cewek. 1000 fiktif. 1 asli and she is you <3"
"Halaaaaaaaah-,- ({})"
" Nonton Global deh. Lawak filmnya"
" Yah tv dikamar gaada globalnya"
" Ckck masa? jgn bilang cuma ada tvri?"
"Enggaklah wah kamu menghina tv tanteku nih -,-Coba nonton Trans7,berani ga?"-Dunia Lain
"Tontonan ga mendidik. Penipuan publik. Apa untungnya nnton setan? kita dapet ilmu dari setan?"
"Bilang aja kamu takut nontonnya kan?"
"ngapain takut? Aku lebih takut putus sama kamu... :("

-The sweetest ending of the day-:)

Tanggal 18 Mei lalu, gue menghapus status "jomblo bahagia" gue...
Actually, gue sendiri masih gak percaya ada nama "KevinAlexanderEmmanuelOrah" di bio twitter gue..
Seluk beluk cerita nya lucu,singkat,dan agak random sedikit. haha
So far so long, gue udah 1 bulan lebih dikit sama dia. Baru sebentar-_-
tapi udah banyak momen yang gue rasaaaaaaaaa itu sejarah bat.

Salah satunya, first date,yap first date gue dicolong sama dia, dan sebaliknya pun begitu. Waktu itu hari Senin, 4 Juni *inget.... To-do-list di first date gue SANGAT simpel. Cuma nonton, sama jalan-jalan~
Lucunya kejadian ini kayak yang ada di sinetron-sinetron kebanyakan. Kita janjian jam 12 di Metropolitan Mall Bekasi. Dan gue baru berangkat dari rumah baru jam 12. Jam 1 gue sampe langsung ke Gramedia, tempat kita janjian. 20menit.... 40menit.... 3600detik.... ahkirnya dia dateng-_-. Dengan pake kemeja kotak-kotak+celana panjang (yang bikin dia makin kece) dia dateng dengan tampang muka tanpa salah...
Kita langsung ke XXI beli tiket nonton Men In Black 3... Filmnya baru mulai jam 14.45 jadi kita mutusin buat jalan-jalan dulu. Kita berjalan tanpa arah~ sampe ahkirnya kita berhenti di stand booth Hop-Hop yang letaknya juga sebenernya sebelahan sama XXI -_- abis selesai minum Hop-Hop kita masuk ke XXI lagi terus gak berapa lama theatere 3 udah buka terus kita masuk. Sepiiii sekalii. Mungkin intensitas penonton Men In Black udah mulai melemah karena filmnya udah agak lama. dst dst~~
Pokoknya gitulaahhh :D

Hubungan komunikasi gue sama alex sebenernya susah. Gak kayak pasangan lain kebanyakan, sering smsan, bbman atau lain sebagainya. Tapi tidak bagi gue, gue jarang smsan sama dia. Karena PULSA! hahaha. Dan 1 hal yang lucu disini, walaupun alex jarang bat punya pulsa dia selalu sms gue pake beberapa nomer dibawah, yang gue save di hp gue dengan nama berikut :
     1. Mamanya Alex : 0219955xxxxx
     2. Amanda : 081210xxxxxxx (adeknya Alex)
     3. Omanya Alex : 0858107xxxx
                               : 0213262xxxx
    4. Papanya Alex : 0813164xxxxx
How funny are this!! dan kebayang gak sih orang yang lo sayang selalu ngomong " Aku sayaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaang banget sama kamu" setiap sms ataupun telp. Kadang gue cuma bisa senyum-senyum sendiri. dan kenyataannya hati gue juga teriak "Aku jugaa sayaaaaaaaaaaaaaaang banget sama kamu lex" ({})
    
          

nevermind.

" im speechless. i cant give you everything. But I've my  heart, the only thing that i can give, including love. I'm not beside you. But my love will always accompany you. I love you so much... <3"


" but your love without you is nothing. I want you and all of your heart. Can i have it?"


" I wish Im right beside you. I've told you : I love you. I wish this sentences would makes you smile and satisfied you. If tomorrow never comes, I still love you. If the sun will die, my love never die. I was born to tell you i love you"


"yes that sentences can makes me smile. but i had 1 problem that makes me afraid until now"


"what's that? I wish that i could turn back the clock. back to this morning and tell you how much i love you... My love is so much more than the stars. My love for you is an endless love"


":) ({}). How about your ex?"


" i swear by the moon and the stars. I DONT  LOVE HER ANYMORE!!!. I hope you trust me..."


24052012-20:49

for you bonsay :)

Move On (Bruno Mars)

How do I end up in the same old place,
faced again with the same mistakes,
so stubborn thinkin I know what is right,
but life proves me wrong everytime,
takin roads that lead me nowhere,
how do I expect to get there,
but when will I learn to just put you first.
I come to you now when I need you,
but why do I wait to come see you,
I always try to do this on my own but I was wrong cause only with you can I move on. Can I move on.
When I am weak it's you that makes
me strong,
and I know that you've been with me all along,
so many times I begin to close my eyes and listen to my heart,
with you life is so easy why do I
make it hard,
oh takin roads that lead me nowhere how do I expect to get there when will I Learn to just put you first.
I come to you now when I need you,
but why do I wait to come see you,
I always try to do this on my own but I was wrong cause only with you can I move on.
I get out of my own way, let you have your way.
Cause I realize Im no good on my own,
I'm there for you, I'll settle for you
I can't live without you. No
I come to you now when I need you, why do I wait to come see you,
I always try to do this on my own but I was wrong, I was wrong, I was wrong. With only you, only you, with only you. Can I move on, can I move on, can I move on,

Out Of Reach

Knew the sign wasn’t right. 

I was stupid for a while swept away by you

and know I feel  like a fool.

So confused..

My heart bruised, was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach so far I never had your heart

Out of reach couldn’t see we were never meant to be

catch myself  from despair

I could drown if I stay here

Keeping  busy everyday

I know I will be ok

So much hurt

so much pain

takes a while to regain what is lost inside

And I hope that the time you’ll be out my mind and I’ll be over you

gak kerasa...

Heyyy 
Hello im back :D
Long time no blogging~~
HAHA


Heyyy kemaren tanggal 30 April gue udah masuk sekolah lagi :D
Berharap tanggal 30 itu hari terahkir ketemu "mereka"...... kakak-kakak kuu :D
huaah karena mereka bentar lagi udah lulus :(


Dan tiga minggu lagi udah UAS :( FIGHTING! 
Abis UAS terus LIIIIIVVVVEEEE IIIIIINNNN bareng vct55! yuhuuuuuu it will be fun!


Udah 3 hari masuk sekolah gak liat "nya".
Gak buruk-buruk banget kok.
Malahan seneng :D
Gue kira setelah "nya" pergi bakalan buruk banget situasinya. 
Ternyata tidakk :p
Mungkin karena selama ini gue pikir "nya" itu penting.
Tapi tanpa "nya" gue bisa kok buat momen bahagia sendiri.
Dan gue gak terlalu mikirin "nya" lagi :D
dan semoga "nya" bisa pergi dari vct dan melanjutkan sekolahnya tanpa gangguan, HAHA.


Semoga niat baik gur ini dapat berjalan dengan baik.


Ada sedikit percakapan gue sama Michelle tadi pagi.
Gue : Chelle, kalo gak ada dia ternyata gak buruk-buruk amat ya?
Michelle : Haha iyalah din. Lo nya aja agak terlalu lebay.
Gue : Hehe iya. Mudah-mudahan gue gak mikirin dia lagi yah :(
Michelle : Jangan-jangan karena saking lamanya lo gak ketemu dia, ntar pas perpisahan dia udah jenggotan lagi.
Gue : Hem :|


LOL!


Enough for today, goodnight ;)

im on my right way

WISH im on my right way.

Banyak banget keputusan yang harus dipilih.

Masing-masing punya sisi negatif dan positifnya tersendiri.

Tinggal tergantung kita mau yang mana.

Ini adahal hal yang berat menurut gue.

Kalo aja lo salah ngambil keputusan, lo bakal nyesel (sangat)

Tapi lo gak bisa kalo gak  pilih salah satu diantara mereka, life must go on bro

Bingung gak sih ?

Dan sekarang gue sedang di ujung "tanduk" pertimbangan yang amat besar (menurut gue)

Antara "moveon" atau "keep stayed".

Penting gak sih?

Bagi lo mungkin ini gak penting tapi buat gue ini menyangkut kelanjutan hidup gue(berlebihan, sangat)

Hehe gak gitu juga sih.

Gini nih :

MOVEON ::

+ Gak terbebani banyak pikiran

+ Gak suka galau sendirian sore-sore

+ Lebih konsen buat sekolah

- Udah terlalu banyak cerita di dalamnya, gue gak mungkin lupa

- Tetep bisa galau karena gak bisa lupa

- Waktu gue kebuang sangat banyak, dan gue ngelepasin gitu aja? gak mungkin

STAY :

+ Masih bisa terus ngobrol, walau cuma di sms

+ Lebih banyak menciptakan sebuah cerita menarik (lagi),eeeaaa banget gue

+ Meneruskan cerita "my first sight love"

- Gak tau kapan ceritanya berujung

- Masih BANYAK manusia lain yang membutuhkan gue, dan gue menolak mereka

- Intinya gue digantungin

Imbang kan tiga-tiga. Mampus aja deh gue.

Tinggal pilih atas atau bawah.

Dan gue HARUS pilih. SECEPATNYA. Sebelum semuanya terlambat.

Life must go on :')

gak jelas pooolllll

Sore ini.....
Tadi buka facebook buat nyari luisa di box chat facebook, tapi ternyata gak ada foto dia dipojok sana :D

Terus gue buka tab twitter, berniat untuk mention dia.

"@luisaniiaaa ol facebook doooonggggssss"

Ada bunyi chat dari facebook. Gue pikir itu luisa. Tapi gak taunya malah ada orang gak jelas kayak gini :

Kenapa banyak sekali orang di dunia yang stress akan hidupnya sendiri? Kasian mereka.

LOL!!!

 

9GAG.com

Love you so muchh :3

Love you so much................................................... <3 :D

Dolphin Fact #3

Dolphins are very smart creatures. They are fast learners, and can generalize about subject, just like pigs can. Dolphins sometimes have been described as being as intelligent as a two year old human child. Dolphins can even learn to understand complicated commands, even bits of language, which they can use to communicate in a simple way with their trainers.

WANTED :3 :

 LED LIGHT DOLPHIN :

LED Light Dolphin

BIG ITS BETTER (y)

Anyone have it? :'(

I want IT! 

I love dolphin too much :3

Random Fact #2

If I walk and talk with someone, eventually I will synchronize my steps with each other :D

Random Fact #1

Some people would say I'm pretty mad.

 Mad as in crazy. But to me, I'm normal.

 It's how I am. I dont "act" crazy nor am I crazy.

I'm me. :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASTRID!

                       HAPPY BIRTHDAY
             MY BELOVED SISTAAAA {}
  VIRGINIA ROSA ASTRID DAMAYANTI


         24 APRIL 2006 - 24 APRIL 2012

here is my birthday girl :D

And here is her pict before the birthday party

keep unyu, jangan bawel-bawel dan jangan cengeng lagi yaa dek :)

He's finally got it right

What I want and I need and everything that we should be.

I'll bet she's beautiful. 

That girl he talks about, 

and she's got everything that I have to live without.

But I can't even see anyone when he's with me.

He says he's so in love. He's finally got it right.

I wonder if he knows...

He's all I think about at night.

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar

He's the only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing stars. 

Don't know why... I do.

Can he tell that I can't breath? 

And there he goes, so perfectly.

The kind of flawless I wish I could be.

She better hold him tight, give him all her love.

Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky. :')

Look BOY!
         You CAN'T play games 
                 with a girl
         who made the rules ;)

"So you see this world, doesn't matter to me. I'll give up all I had just to breath. The same air as you till the day that I die, I cant take my eyes off of you.

My whispers turn to shouting. The shouting turns to tears. My tears turn into laughter and it takes away our fears"

~Secondhand Serenade~

Aku Belajar

Aku Belajar Melupakan

Seseorang Yang Melupakan Aku

Aku Belajar Memaafkan

Semua Yang Menyakiti Aku

Aku Belajar Untuk Menjadi 

Yang Terbaik Untuk Orang

Yang Aku Sayangi

Tetapi Satu Yang Tidak Bisa

Aku Pelajari Adalah

Aku Harus Bisa Tersenyum

Disaat Orang Yang Aku Sayangi

Menyayangi Orang Lain

MENJAMUR

"23-27 April 2012 : Siswa kelas 7-8 belajar dirumah, karena ada Ujian Nasional untuk kelas 9. Dan kembali masuk seperti biasa tanggal 30 April 2012 dan kembali dengan jadwal semula"

Kata-kata ini yang bikin gue "menjamur dirumah.

Ada banyak "to-do-list" yang akan dilakukan minggu ini..............

Tapi gak tau bisa jalan atau enggak.

Semoga gak sampe jamuran gue minggu ini T_T 

ahhhh cepatlahh masuk sekolah, arrrggghhhhh

(wishicanseehimforthelasttimebeforehegoawayandicantevermeethimforever,wish it never happen)

asdjbasdkslkdj

I am good, but not an angel.

I do sin, but i am not the devil.

I am just a small girl in a big world,

trying to find someone to love.

-Marilyn Monroe-

To Be With You - Mr. Big

Hold on, little girl
Show me what he's done to you
Stand up, little girl
A broken heart can't be that bad
When it's through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on, baby, come on over
Let me be the one to show you

I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you'll feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues 
Just to be the next to be with you

Build up your confidence 
So you can be on top for once
Wake up. Who cares about little boys 
That talk too much?
I've seen it all go down
The game of love was all rained out
Let me be the one to hold you

I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you'll feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues 
Just to be the next to be with you

Why be alone when we can be together, baby?
You can make my life worth while
I can make you start to smile
When it's through, it's through
And fate will twist the both of you
Let me be the one to show you

I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you'll feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues 
Just to be the next to be with you
I'm the one who wants to be with you
Let me be the one to show you

I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you'll feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues 
Just to be the next to be with you
I'm the one who wants to be with you
Let me be the one to show you

It means...

It means.......

rawr

CIN(T)A

Dear God,

in Your majesty, You create differences

in my arrogance, I question You wisdom

in Your mystery, you create temptation

in my inferiority, You make me more than I am
so here I am

surrender me in the agony of Your love

surrender me in the irony of Your law

lead me to the joy of love re-devine

teach me how to love You more

(:

Maybe it's you

Finally, i felt the sense of that "electricity" (again) 

when all of this serebrum fulfilled with a shadow 

of indescribable mystery of life.

How can i realize what should be realized before. 

It's too late. I've made a wrong decision. 

Made a wrong way of thought. There's no chance to rewind.

Now, what i can do is letting the life's story go on and on.
 See what it may takes. Hear what i should not hear.

Based on the harsh things above,

i would like to rebuild what am i tried to build in five years ago. DREAMS. 

Yeah,

i won't kill my dream for the second times with the same "wrong" way anymore. 

Killing a dream for another (fake) dream merely make you reach none of them.

uuh! 

TimeMachine, could you bring me back to any old days?

I'm lack of hopes for reaching what i wanna reach.

For believing what should i keep believes on.

I'm craving.

Keep on turning and searching what is missing.

Until i found what it hopes about.

The sense of "electricity" which running through my vein.

The shadow of  someone which creeps into my nights.

Have you ever think?

That shadow maybe,

it's you.